Please read my stories with an open mind and heart. I write these stories as entertainment and to record my stories as a carer not to blame or offend anyone.

I am beyond exhausted. I just want to sleep now. I just want to be alone. I don’t want to listen to blasting trumpet music any more. I do not want to repeat the same sentences 300 times a day. I do not want to look for something. I do not want to be accused of misplacing and hiding items. I want some time-out.

I often wonder how others do it. I know carers who do 6 weeks on and one or max two weeks off. They must have mastered a skill that I do not possess: self-preservation. Those with this essential skill tell me that during their break the heaven can come down in blast and they still would not move a finger. It is their time-off and whatever happens during that time is none of their business.

Like I mentioned it a few times before, I am officially not supposed to do work more than eight hours a day. Carers with heightened level of self-preservation count the hours of work and as soon as the eight-hour duty is up, they are off. I say, Good for them!

I am exhausted because I do not count the hours and I cannot take time out mentally. I cannot leave the job outside of my room.

None of this is covered during the training. Apart from health&safety and meds administration there does not seem to be time left for discussing self-preservation and how to avoid burn-out. When you are on the job 24/7 with a two-hour break a day, it is rather likely that you will burn out very soon if you do not apply some ‘techniques’ that help you maintain your sanity.

I heard rumours about a previous carer who was fired because she had shouted with the clients. Honestly, I am not surprised. When you are pestered and harassed daily, you eventually snap. Sure, it should not be like that. Apart from judging and punishing unacceptable behaviour, is there anything at all done to prevent it?